My Viewfinder series manga collection!!

OMG! I just completed my finder series collection yesterday! XD

So. .yes, yesterday the packages arrived. I was so happy I didn’t notice that there was a teacher inside the classroom that time. Well, he was wearing a navy blue polo and didn’t see his face so I thought he was just a student. I was squirming while looking for my packages because my friend hid it. Then one of my classmates told me that I should behave because there’s a teacher. When I looked around, I was so embarrassed I could die!! And you know what’s the worst?! My classmates opened it for our teacher to see! DX I was screaming my lungs out because I was so nervous and embarrassed. Good thing the teacher didn’t comment something bad about it. I mean, he was cool with it! So yes, I guess everything went fine except for the fact that a teacher already knew my yaoi hobby. K

The mangas that arrived yesterday :>

Last night I read the three volumes that arrived even though they were not in order (I’ve already read it anyway) but I was amazed because there were parts that I haven’t read yet. Yes! I haven’t read some of them from the scans of Harudaki! Everyone should buy the manga itself for them to read those parts! It was so great I couldn’t have enough of it! I just love looking at my collection! It makes me feel happy that I have physical copies stashed on my cabinet to read anytime. They pleasure of having them in your hands exceeds the pleasure of reading them online! :D

Sorting out my collection, I have 6 volumes of Finder series by Yamane Ayano-sensei, In These Words from Guilt|Pleasure, and volumes 2,3,4, & 6 of Ai No Kusabi since I wasn’t able to get hold of the volume 1 & 5 (they’re rare to find and so expensive!). Now I’m waiting for my Totally Spying on them djs and U don’t Know Me manhwa from Netcomics and Ai No Kusabi volume 7! I’m so thrilled for the arrival of those!!

OH MY PRECIOUS COLLECTION!

                

Drawing! Drawing! :D

It’s been so long since the last time I’ve seriously drawn anything except my architectural plates and it was really difficult for when I started drawing this character for my tumblr followers. When the count of my followers was just 150, I decided to draw something for them when I reach 200 followers. But then unexpectedly, I’ve reached 200 in just a short time so I have to do what I’ve promised. I said that I would draw Iason and RIki, my favorite yaoi characters from Ai No Kusabi. I was planning to draw an intimate scene between the two but I ended up drawing Iason alone. Well, I really like Iason and I’ve been meaning to draw him since a long time so when I thought of starting to draw my dedication to my followers, I decided to draw Iason first then I’d draw them both later.

I was so excited to draw again just like how I used to before I became so busy with my course so the night before, I prepared the materials I needed first. When I open my pencil case, I discovered something unusual and I don’t know why. My kneaded eraser melted the surface of my ruler that was touching the eraser. I wonder why that happened. That was my favorite ruler so I got irritated and threw my kneaded eraser. Hahaha :>

I drew Iason on the afternoon the next day. At first, it was irritating because I’m having a hard time sketching. I guess my skills have become rusty because of a long time break from drawing human/anime characters. My first sketch was shit. So I tore it and started again. It took me a while to adjust but fortunately, I was able to move my hands comfortably until I’ve finished it. The parts that took my time redrawing repeatedly were the eyes and the lips. Those parts were my weaknesses ever since and it still didn’t change even now. The part I like working most is the rendering. I’m not that good with colors so I don’t associate myself with them often but I like rendering using pencil. I think I’m only quite good with pencils. Hahaha. I don’t like using pen in my drawings because I don’t know how to use them yet, or rather, I never practiced using them.

 

The output’s fine but I’m not satisfied with it. Darn. .I’m always not satisfied with my drawings. I need to improve and to practice more but I don’t have much time for it since my course focuses on building designs. It’s really frustrating. Oh well, if there’s a will, there’s a way. I’m glad I did that promise to my followers. I was able to use my skills in drawing again because of it. Next, I’ll be drawing Iason with Riki. I’ll work even harder this time! :D

Sorry if my drawing’s not that good, I’m still so far away from being a good artist. And I know he doesn’t really look that close to Iason but I hope you like it!

In These Words vol. 1 lovely feels! XD

Yesterday, when I arrived at my classroom, my classmate who I’ve trusted to receive my packages unexpectedly held me a different envelop than usual, it was a brown one, not the common white one I usually receive. It was the package from Guilt pleasure, a book that I got so curious about and ended up buying a copy of it online. I let her open it and I totally freaked out when I saw that it has a notepad accompanying the book itself. “Oh my god! A freebie!” I cried aloud without even minding my classmates around me. I was so happy and I felt so giddy. I couldn’t keep myself from freaking out because of the excitement I felt inside. I didn’t even care that I’m gathering all their attention and happily celebrating the arrival of the book. Kyaaaaah! XD I really love having the real thing in my hands!

The book that I’ve bought from DP was the suspense story “In these words”. I just love the cover of the book! It made me think of how amazing the content would be! Then I also love the DP card with the book and the notepad! So sexy! I could feel the invisible *fojushi drool* crawling out of my mouth! Then my friends asked me to give them one sheet of the notepad and I couldn’t say no. So, they were having fun tearing one sheet each knowing that it would make me freak out more. Yes. I was screaming while they took the time tearing sheets each for themselves. They’re such a sadist! They knew so well that it would affect me. DX

Everyone might be wondering why I’m reacting openly like that even with my classmates around. Well, it’s because I’m a proud and shameless fojushi and it’s hard for me to control my emotions even with a lot of people around especially when it concerns my hobbies. And on top of these reasons, almost everyone of my classmates already knew that I love yaoi. Yes, they so fucking knew my homosexual fetish!

And so when it comes down to the book. OMG! I’m so amazed with the drawing I couldn’t even. . .Damn! I love love love it! The colored prints are so beautiful, wonderful, lovely, exquisite, and seductive, it made my heart goes doki doki and my mind was so in cloud9 when I saw them! Gosh! I like Katsuya and his character. The events in his nightmares were so sexy and so sadistic that I’ve had a boner down there even though it’s just imaginary! LOL. Also, he looks more handsome and ukeish with his hair down. Ahhhh! I just like seeing him getting fucked like that! Yeah. . I’m a sadist too that’s why I really love the concept of this book!

I love what he said here! XD Kyaaaahh!

Katsuya is so sexy! DX

so cute!!

The mysterious and childish air around Keiji is what I love the most. His eyes are so fierce and strong. Aaaaaah! Keiji! He’s so sadistic I love him so much! His every word feels so real when he speaks to Katsuya. I want to know more about him and I can’t wait to read the second volume! The end of the volume one’s so fucking cliffhanger I was screaming when I reached that part last night!  I wonder when’s the next release would be. I’ll surely get a copy of it no matter what! My butt’s getting giddy just thinking of the possible events ahead between Katsuya and Keiji!

The guilt pleasure logo is so wow! I like it a lot! and that sexy guy there! OMG! so hot!

Katsuya's chibi version! SO CUTE! XD

TogaQ and KuchikuNeko-san, thank you so much for creating such thrilling and exciting story. Moreover, the sex scenes are so beautifully and explicitly illustrated that I couldn’t help rereading it repeatedly. That stranger’s cock is so big. Whoever he is I know Katsuya felt good having it up his ass. LOL. And oh! The ITW chibi version’s quite funny! I couldn’t agree more of what the fojushis did on those scenes. Hahaha! Buying this book rather cost me a lot but I regret nothing. In contrary, I’m now saving up for the next volume of it. Cheers to Guilt pleasure, TogaQ & KichikuNeko, and DMP for such a wonderful manga! :>

1999 SHANGHAI by Mizushiro Setona

A forbidden feeling that wells up between two opposing gang protégées, a fated encounter that brings both of them fall into the trap of love. How far will they go for the uncontrollable emotion they have for each other? A strong yet dangerous desire devouring their hearts to the point of no return. A love so pure yet unacceptable. Who would have thought that such powerful feelings would tie a member of Toulon, the strongest gang, and a member of Xianglongji, the smartest and most clever gang, which both rule the shanghai area, together  in a relationship that would test their loyalties? A battle of territories, power, dignity and love that would risk not just their lives but their hearts as well. So which will prevail? Their love for each other or their loyalties to their brothers?

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One of Mizushiro-sensei’s great works, 1999 Shanghai is a very wonderful yet tragic tale of love between two people under opposing gangs. It is a story that will make one smile of happiness witnessing the passionate love of Dawu and Xiaoxue and cry the moment after, realizing that these feelings will soon crumble to their feet. Despite of the risky situation, both of them love each other so much that they have to choose the path they should take next. They knew so well that any time they have to point the gun to each other and pull the trigger yet the love blossoming between them never ceased. Until they couldn’t hide their relationship anymore and they have to decide which is which.  With the important persons in their lives and the gangs involved, it was just a matter of time for them to end up killing each other. 

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A beautiful love story in the slum world of Shanghai brought to light the consequences, the sufferings, and most of all the desire to love and be loved despite the spaces between them. They’ve struggled to save their feelings for each other yet it should have never been there from the start. And later on the cruel reality hit them hard. They have to obey the rules. They have to stand under their respective position. They have to bury their hearts.

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“Let the two of us go through heaven until hell”

“In the face of love, falling like a meteor, we are so helpless”

“He’s just one of 6 billion on this earth, but he means so much to me.”

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This manga is a masterpiece. A striking representation of forbidden love just like the famous Romeo and Juliet of William Shakespear. A love so chaste yet dangerous, a desire so strong yet poisonous. I knew so well that it has a tragic ending yet I couldn’t resist myself from reading it. And I would have regretted if I hadn’t read such a wonderful and painful story that made me cry buckets of tears. It was exquisite! The feelings and the emotions the manga gave me stirred me so much. I’m so grateful that I was able to witness their love until the very end. This manga will always be in my heart and the love that Dawu and Xiaoxue shared will always be in my memories. I love everything about it including the beautiful smiles, the painful cries and the fearful bloodsheds. I’m a tragedy manga lover despite the sorrow and the melancholy it gives me.  1999 Shanghai is one of the best ever mangas I’ve read.

Witness the love of Dawu and Xiaoxue and experience the feelings of the prohibited love they have. Moreover, another unacceptable emotion from one of each opposing gangs developed on the sideline.

THEY WERE VERY HAPPY UNTIL THE VERY END.

An adult love story about two men and agonizing longing. . .

Kyuuso Ha Cheese no Yume Omiru [The cornered mouse dreams of cheese]

Sojou no Koi wa Nido Haneru [The carp on the chopping block jumps twice]

By Mizushiro Setona

How far will a homosexual relationship within a straight man and a gay man go? What trials will they have to pass through in order to stay together? On top of that, what are the true feelings that well up inside a straight man’s heart in this kind of relationship? Will he fall completely in love? Or will it end up as just a passing emotions that will eventually disappear as time goes by?

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A complicated love and longing. A perfect representation of how homosexual relationship struggles to attain happiness. A kind of tale that shows how emotions can control and lead people to their limits. And of how difficult love can be. This is the story of two adult men, Kyouichi and Imagase, a straight man and a gay man together in a relationship of twisted feelings.

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Kyouchi’s dilemma leads to his indecisiveness and cowardice towards their growing relationship and with the women coming into him, such problems just gets more complicated. His feelings are always half-hearted and that’s why having affairs with women has always been easy. Imagase’s obsession on the other hand, leads him to understand and accept Kyouichi’s infidelity and continued to stay with him. But everyone has their own limits and the love he has for Kyouichi struggles to the point of breaking down.

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As I’m reading these mangas, I have understood the feelings of despair and dilemma of a straight man in a gay relationship and of the feelings of responsibility of having such happiness and comfort. But of course, relationships just don’t deal with only that. In this 2-volume story of Imagase and Kyouichi, the true feelings of a straight man are revealed. His own point of view and perspective of how a homosexual relationship operates.  I love how the story develops and of how the characters suffered in their own indecisiveness and fear. I love how the feelings grew and how they’ve struggled to control their emotions. The story is a beautiful and painful tale that I even had teary eyes while reading it. The mangaka is very good. I love the plot, the emotions and the art. These two volumes of Imagase and Kyouichi’s love story and longing is a must read! Witness their relationship from the start til the very end.

Ai No Kusabi Vol. 2: DESTINY

So last august 03, I’ve got hold of a copy of Ai No Kusabi volume 2: Destiny. It was a dream come true for I have been longing deeply to have a copy of those precious books I’ve been admiring all this time. I have already read the whole 6 volumes of the story using a soft copy I have downloaded online but having the real thing was not just a mere whimsy of mine but the desire to have the physical copies on my hands. It is for my complete satisfaction.

The fact that I couldn’t gain the volume one because of its rareness thus, the price was quite out of my reach, made me settle to buy those I could afford.  After it arrived, I quickly read the volume two without hesitation, for the second time. It was as if the feelings I had the first time I read rose again and my chest was full of those warm unknown emotions. Reading it means experiencing those great ups and down of emotions and the thrill of knowing the events and the characters again.

I couldn’t count how many times I smiled, laughed, screamed and called out the names Iason and Riki repeatedly. The happiness and excitement of witnessing those fateful encounters of these two marvelous characters kept me swaying in and out of my own world. If I had not entered into this beautiful world called “YAOI” I would have not known this tale that embodied the true meaning of “the wedge of love”.

The moment I opened the book destiny, I was in deep joy that I felt like crying. Perhaps, not everyone would understand the feelings I felt but I believe that any Ai No Kusabi fan out there would undoubtedly agree with me.

As I continued to read, the phrase “Riki met Iason” made my heart cried out of passion. And I was completely swept away with the urge to reminisce this beautifully conveyed story of Iason Mink and Riki the Black. And so, with every flip of the pages and every move of my eyes as I read the story, I was under the spell of this beautiful tale of dark mysteries.

I can’t seem to patiently wait for the volume 3 to arrive on my hands. However, since I haven’t purchased the volume 1 and quickly jumped to the second volume to read, I might as well just use the soft copy I have to read it again. I am now so enthralled to read this novel again. In my opinion, there’s no doubt that “Ai No Kusabi”, just what June manga says, defined the genre.